OK. SO.... Where do I begin?? Between being a new mom who is avidly changing diapers, giving baths, changing clothes, etc. etc. Being a wife trying to find time to wash dishes, wash clothes, keep the house clean, cook, take care of baby and still look cute and be sexy when I can barely fit what is in my closet and when I am covered in throw up.... Add in career woman who is working beyond full time from home to grow a Harlem business which means making calls, organizing, setting up arrangements, keeping up with what is going on etc. etc... I'm like whew. Not to mention trying to be a good friend and keep up with my family I now know why the coined the phrase " super woman" although I feel I am FAR from that!

First I felt unpretty and un attractive. That hurt when I felt like now that I have had a baby will my husband even care to look at me the way he did when we were dating or how he did when I slimmed back down to a size 5? I was all concerned about having a happy baby and being a good mom, but not losing myself in the snot and slime and throw up that accompanies it. I wanted to stay sharp in my mind able to stomp with the big business dogs of NYC if you will. In New York City Life, I wanted to still meet up with my friends and chuckle with them ( which many of them have come to visit me and Calia of course) and last but not least I wanted to get some SLEEP!! Which is soooooooooooo underrated, by the way. It feels so good just to SLEEP!! Thankfully Calia has learned to sleep through the night!

I have to say I have learned a lot in this experience. How things change for better or worse and how to adjust and so forth. But I gotta say- HATS OFF to the single moms!!! If I didn't have Chris.... I really don't know what I would do. He is my personal hero making sure that all things are taken care of financially, emotionally, and spiritually. GOD could not have blessed me with a better man to spend my life with. As you all know he is full of jokes but I'm still gonna have to get on him for his little blogs about me being spoiled and whatnot.... mmmmmhmmmmm. Don't even get me started on HIM! But he is in there in the trenches with me, tired from working and still reading "Mufaro's Beautiful Daughters" with an African Accent and everything! LOL


Calia is such a precious part of our lives now and she is my personal little miracle.Some of you know my story of how I had been through two miscarriages and when Calia came along it was my wake-up call to get out of putting my celebrity enhanced career first and realize what really and truly mattered. Now when I look at my baby girl and she smiles I know I made the right decision. Even when she cries her eyes out I know I made the right decision.

Even our church family has shown so much love and it means so much to live the life we live with a baby in the grand NYC!

Now all we need to do is join the Rent is too D*** High party and figure out how we are going to afford a caretaker at $500.00 a week( I mean really?)

Things will come together. God has brought us this far and I don't think he will leave us yet.